Stealing Time
It’s been a while since my last entry.
Looks like we have come to the end of the road. Just as well. It’s been a long time coming.
I found myself learning new things still, too exponentially. They say u are wiser as u mature, but I find myself still being toughened up through the school of hard knocks. Perhaps the head needs to rule the heart more, and understand that trust is a simple 5-letter word yet it beggars belief.
I learnt that:
1) Birds of the same feather flock together. Pple who mix together and become best buds will still have core characteristics that are synonymous with their group and education level, and social network. Complexity breeds crap.
2) You want to trust someone, but that doesn’t mean u shld. Hard to control at times, but some pple are not really that true to their words.
3) We all serve a purpose in life. Different roles at diff times. Mine was something specific then. No longer necessary, and excuses aplenty but end of day, actions ALWAYS speak louder than words.
4) If it’s not meant to be, means intensity and feelings are not as strong as spoken. It might have been, but at a prev strategic time, and that time is over. It’s better that the seed was planted, but no flower grew and no pollen harvested.
5) Nice guys do finish last. Bad guys, no matter how bad, will be excused by girls. They just need minor improvements and they will be deemed as a changed person. Gals like to change their guys, and feel that they are loved through giving in and adaptation. That works. and deceives. But it dun matter anymore how the world behaves, it’s serious crap.
6) Poor judgement and cowardice – We are wrong, so wrong. And avoidance at day end speaks a lot. Sure that there will be many ‘noble’ excuses, but u know. I know. Solace, desirability, threat, play hard to get, distance from solace and then return to home. In that order. Welcome to the jungle :>
7) An ah beng will always be an ah beng. Likewise an ah lian. In terms of thinking, behaviour, network mannerisms, etc. And consequently their management of issues and deadends. And we haven even touched on temperament and social life yet. Woohoo.
8) Certain people deserve each other. Enough said.
9) Never your loss. Also others’. I truly believe that. If we think that it’s purely ours, might as well kill oneself there and then. A world of bastards and bitches and delusional couples. That’s happiness and bliss for u guys, the world is a marvellous place, ain’t it. Life is really simple, try telling that to humans.
10) Exes. Now u knw how pple act as they are now. Coz they were suckers like u, went thru similar fate and/or went into a shell. Haha. But hey, as long as u act distant, high class, need saviour yet dun trouble pple, it’s never your fault ever…. right? A whole cycle of used souls, damnation is upon us, and time will tell for others. Damocles do your thing.
It’s all for the better. That’s for sure. Closure brings circulation to your system, and life to the zombie. It nips the bud and slaps u hard, and jolt u back into, hopefully a more normal world. But hey, as long as there are humans, we ain’t gonna be that normal, right people?
